#5. Self-Fulfilled Progeny: For all he’s conquered, being just like my father would be an honor.
I have come to a better appreciation and greater understanding of my earthly father now that I am a father. My relationship with my dad has improved tremendously since my marriage (relating husband to husband) but even further so by being a dad. I appreciate the foundation he set, the hard decisions he made and even his mistakes as they have set up how I am better able/prepared to be an effective father to my children.
#4. Self Re-Centered: Engendered joy in my world’s re-centered by my baby boy and girl.
If marriage (and YES – I am advocating, assuming and concluding that true fatherhood should happen within and after marriage!) didn’t tame your selfishness, fatherhood should! I had many selfish traits that I carried into my marriage that I was unaware of because I had been previously by myself. My own father noted how much less selfish I became after marriage… but he wasn’t living in my house to see the other self-centered ways I still portrayed. Having children simply reprioritizes your ranking which is an interesting dichotomy for being the head of the household. What it does is foster the learned behavior and precept of being a servant leader. What once seemed like an oxymoron should become adopted as a way of Christ-like life.
#3a. A Child’s Playback: Interacting with your child’s play enters facts about your childish ways.
#3b. Deliverance: My baby boy has helped to deliver me from many childish things.
#3c. Shaken Not Stirred: The Gravitas of Family Tree Husbandry: Slightly shaken by fatherhood, seeds fall in line witnessing my fruits.
Aside from giving away my 8-bit Nintendo, Nintendo 64 systems (realizing that I wouldn’t have time for nostalgia gameplay anymore) and foregoing the purchase of any new games or game systems beyond Playstation 2; having a son allowed me to put away childish things. Traits that I didn’t want to pass on to him through his observed mimicry of me had to be checked and corrected. Simply stated and according to the Word:
‘When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.’ – 1 Corinthians 13:11
#2. Fatherhood: The anointing of a father should cover his child’s head like a hood.
We have all been called and/or sent out to advance the Kingdom of God before mankind and the rest of the world. Accepting and walking in this anointing takes a level of maturity that not only benefits the father but benefits his offspring. My own calling was realized in my late twenties/early thirties so I feel as though I’m late in getting into my assigned work. But my son? He will not be late. He will learn the true practicality of the Kingdom and the role he plays in its application earlier than I did so that his work can have a greater impact. What will then effectively happen is that each generation’s learning curve will be shorter than the one that proceeded it as the newer generation accepts the truths of the Gospel and acts on it sooner while rejecting the mistakes and errors of the previous [generation].
#1. Seeing Through the Heavenly Father: My father-son guise shows my own bothersome cries through My Father’s eyes.
Elaborating on the #3 and #5 reasons for being a father, as I began instructing my son on how to listen me and be obedient to me, I experienced the frustrations of seeing him fail when he knew better but chose to do the wrong thing in the stubbornness of his own free will. As I began to see myself in him, it was quickly revealed to me how I related to God as seen through my three-year old child.
Observing the thought processes and actions of my son’s rebelliousness showed me how my own resistance to the instructions of God had delayed the gifts He wants to bestow upon me for being obedient. Simply stated, you understand both sides of your relationship with God THE Father better once you’ve become a father.
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Unborn Hero
Or heroine you very well may be,
Just a few years away, my unknown spouse and I will see.
Until then I can only strive to prepare
mentality joined with emotions that will solidify in your first breath of air.
Just the two of us… no indeed, just the family three
accompanied with a heavenly and spiritual triumvirate
to support you, your mom, and me.
Manhood affirmed and fatherhood to be tested –
your essence strengthens my love for your mother invested.
My plateau must never be peaked, I’ll continue to grow on
to serve as your guardian, guide, confidante and strong arm.
Yet I can not reach my potential while you remain nonexistent.
Just a twinkle in my eye, I await your gift: full and vivid.
Yet also your existence is still put on hold
until I find my true Black queen: God’s will manifold.
My two-thirds completion, my bun and my oven…
My child and my wife, no one on earth put before them.
You represent what I am wary yet confident must happen.
Your presence will forever save my stranded thoughts from hopeless attractions.
You will truly be my hero though I will keep you in line.
Affirming your weaknesses to be my strengths to support your weeping eyes.
‘…Which offspring are in honor? Those who fear God…’
– Sirach 10:19 (Catholic canon)
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The Son King
a.k.a.
Let the Son Shine In
With ‘un rey’ as my son,
My path’s lit like the noonday rays of the sun.
Raising my son will enlighten my life.
With my wait almost done,
I’ve embraced what’s begun…
Since days of young he’s been the prize of my eye.
Rather, I’ve had my eye on my son’s spot
For so long that I’m blind from tunnel thought.
Like sunspots, his presence proves my world is heliocentric.
Rather, my life revolves ‘round my son’s charts.
I’m psyched at the thought of what’s begun to launch…
My son’s ‘le roi’ – next in line to take charge like serial interest.
With a legacy linked to familial Genesis –
his destiny’s provenance,
As the pregnancy lengthens, his
integrity becomes providence.
With a delegacy promised him, I’ll not let the
kingdom of darkness son block his flare or eclipse him.
And though as an infant his delicacy will be prodded,
I’ll see to it that his specialty’s promptly acknowledged…
He’ll be no less than an accomplished Godsend
as his stock rises and shines from the heir in his prism.
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A Hero Complex
a.k.a.
Conception of a Hero
More than Heroes plot twists
Spun from Hiro and bomb threats,
My hero is complex – he’s got his own unique code of genetic destiny.
His image formed is my anti-hero’s convex –
So while the latter’s image was forged in fearful context…
The former was forged with a fearless conscience of my second legacy.
Just as Adam needed Jesus to clear his nonsense,
Her second coming draws me nearer to Promise.
Composed of veered comets, her special vessel projects heavenly.
Indeed, her structure’s a hero complex.
In dreams, her luster musters my tearful subconscious…
It’s ironic – her unprotected conception protects my trajectory.
To develop his mental mainstay into a fortress of tiered solace,
I’ll gauge the developmental stages of his yearly progress.
He’s the Clark Kent to my rearing Jonathan –
I’ll shape what’s he’s predestined to be.
As the Man of Steel Waters,
having Unbreakable gear isn’t farfetched –
While the staff he’ll wield yields water,
on the battlefield, his armor adhered will be a Godsend
As long as he hears me acknowledge and bless Elohim.
Because of her hero status,
I’ll be leery and cautious.
She’ll be a weirdo magnet –
attractin’ peers with no content.
Hence her spiritual ambience will be under protective key.
So as her lore nears those of Loch Ness,
My Lady of the Lake will steer clear of an audience…
So as they jeer to unlock it, her potential remains especially deemed.
Such time invested is what I must clearly respond with
To preserve this lil’ miracle’s conquest.
Still cloaked in darkness, I’m delighted to enlighten their specialty.
While the gender’s still visibly swathed,
I’ll instill the soul with my mere honor’s best.
Invincible or not,
As a Pop, sparin’ rods is not a teary option…
As what my hero accomplishes starts with the plight of this pregnancy.
